All of my life I have shuddered in my speech. I think it is just part of my learning disability. This fact has kept me afraid of speaking in public. No big deal, I am not a salesman! But if you add up my physical limitations, such as my lost of sight and a shoulder that dislocates at the drop of a hat and stack that on top of a foot that breaks just by going for a walk, one might think that it is stupid for me to stand up against the welfare system. People have said that I am biting the hand that feeds me. But that is the point. I have never asked for help from the government because I can still make a living on my own. If I can do it, so can others.
It took a while for my wife to warm up to the Idea of not taking handouts . On the other hand, once she did, I found that she became much stronger in other arias. Kansa lost 50 pounds and is much more confident about here appearance. She became more active and doesn’t have too go to bed at 6:00 just to be able to move when the sun comes up.
It was a good day, Kansa and I got to come home and sit around a fire with our neighbor as I grilled up some burgers. There was nothing outstanding about the food other than the fact that we were all hungry and tired from working all day and the simple hamburgers hit the spot. We watched the sun going down and broke up to head off to bed, which is what I need to do. Cooking is first about survival and second about the company you keep while you eat. Why else do you think food is the centerpiece of any human interaction with other humans? At any rate, the event helped me deal with some unnecessary stress issues that I face on a daily basis at my new job.
On top of the aforementioned disabilities, I deal with PTSD fro my time in Iraq. So my new job at the recycling plant with the random sounds of crashing metal, constant yelling, and large machinery, is just enough to have the dreams return. Last night I woke up coking from a dream that I was being water boarded. But my family needs this job so I have to be tougher than the life that God has given me.
But I must be smarter than the life God has given me. A few minutes ago I woke up hacking and I dislodged what I thought was just mucous, but when I looked down I saw that I coughed up both plastic from work and blood, if I am going to keep this job, I must get use to those dust masks. I am not going to make Kansa a widow because I was too stupid to be safe.
I published the Death of Democracy today in audio book. The Agenda 1 will be on the market in 2 weeks, after I pay $120.00 that was well spend to Ron, the man who did the work. In the mean time Kansa and I are having pasta for dinner.
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